Fighting Myself

Now, sometimes these thoughts in my head speak so loud
如今 有时种种思绪在我的脑海如此聒噪
Every little thing that I think about just built on top of the pain and doubt
浮现在我心中的点点滴滴 无一不建立在痛苦与怀疑之上
Even though I wanna just let it out, I
虽无比渴望发泄 但我
Try to act like I don't mind it, try to keep my mouth so quiet
却试着表现得云淡风轻 试着缄默不言
But sittin' there in my silence, just seems to amplify it
但沉默坐在那里 似乎放大了情绪
When I thought that keepin' this inside would make it better
我本以为埋藏心底会好受些
I never thought that I would end up ruining it forever
我从没想过就此毁灭殆尽 不留余地
But everytime I think, I got everything put back together
可每次心思一动 我就又复原好一切
I end up making more regrets, making more regrets
我终是遗憾居多 抱憾一生
Falling from grace, I watch it all come apart
堕落自恩典的怀抱 我目睹一切分崩离析
Knowing I could've changed it all from the start
我明白 从一开始我就可以改变一切
Fighting myself, I always lose
敌人是我自己 我总一败涂地
Fighting myself, I always lose
与自我抗争 我总一败涂地
I didn't want you to think I'm worn out so easily
我不想让你觉得 我疲惫不堪地太轻易
I wish I'd held in, so you never knew what built up inside of me
我希望遏制住情感 你就不会知道我心中所想
Now, I don't know how it overflows, spill out unwillingly
可此刻 我不知那种种情绪怎么溢出 不情愿地溢出
But now, everything that I learned to hate came out for you to see
而今 我所憎恨的一切 你都一览无余
I don't want you to promise you can change everything and make it better
我不希望 你承诺能改变一切 美好一切
'Cause you can bet, I'm gonna end up ruining it forever
因为你大可打赌 我会就此毁灭殆尽 不留余地
And everytime you think, you got everything put back together
可每次心思一动 我就又复原好一切
I end up making more regrets, making more regrets
我终是遗憾居多 抱憾一生
Falling from grace, I watch it all come apart
堕落自恩典的怀抱 我目睹一切分崩离析
Knowing I could've changed it all from the start
我明白 从一开始我就可以改变一切
Fighting myself, I always lose
敌人是我自己 我总一败涂地
Fighting myself, I always lose
与自我抗争 我总一败涂地
Falling from grace, I watch it all come apart
堕落自恩典的怀抱 我目睹一切分崩离析
Knowing I could've changed it all from the start
我明白 从一开始我就可以改变一切
Fighting myself, I always lose
敌人是我自己 我总一败涂地
Fighting myself, I always lose
与自我抗争 我总一败涂地
I can't run with this weight on my back
千钧重负 我不得动弹
I can't see 'cause I'm focused on the past
我无法看清 因为沉湎过去
I can't breathe, I need to break free
我无法呼吸 我得将桎梏挣脱
From the anger that is constantly inside of me
摆脱内心无休止的怒火
I can't run with this weight on my back
千钧重负 我不得动弹
I can't see 'cause I'm focused on the past
我无法看清 因为沉湎过去
I can't breathe, I need to break free
我无法呼吸 我得将桎梏挣脱
From the anger that is constantly inside of me
摆脱内心无休止的怒火
Falling from grace, I watch it all come apart
堕落自恩典的怀抱 我目睹一切分崩离析
Knowing I could've changed it all from the start
我明白 从一开始我就可以改变一切
I can't breathe, I need to break free
我无法呼吸 我得将桎梏挣脱
From the anger that is constantly inside of me
摆脱内心无休止的怒火
Falling from grace, I watch it all come apart
堕落自恩典的怀抱 我目睹一切分崩离析
Knowing I could've changed it all from the start
我明白 从一开始我就可以改变一切
I can't breathe, I need to break free
我无法呼吸 我得将桎梏挣脱
From the anger that is constantly inside of me
摆脱内心无休止的怒火