self destructive

Self-destructive tendencies
我所钟情的自我毁灭
That I have are killing me slowly
正引我缓赴陨落结局
But that’s fine
但这正合我心意
I like the way it feels
我偏爱这种感觉
Yeah, I, I like the way it feels
是 我甘之如饴
When I think that I’m leaving
当我想到自己的灵魂正在抽离
And I hurt myself to prove that I’m human
我以创伤为自己曾鲜活的凭据
Where did I go wrong this time?
这一次 是哪里出了差错呢
If I don’t wake up
若就此与明日朝阳永诀
I’m better off
于我反倒是种解脱
I’ll finally catch up on my sleep
我终将享有永逸的酣眠
I’ve been so lost
我已迷失太久
3 a.m. thoughts are building a new home just for me
凌晨三点 脑海中筑造杂思的窠臼
If I don’t wake up
若就此与明日朝阳永诀
I’m better off
于我反倒是种解脱
I’ll finally catch up on my sleep
我终将享有永逸的酣眠
I’ve been so lost
我已迷失太久
3 a.m. thoughts are building a new home just for me
凌晨三点 脑海中筑造杂思窠臼
Tell me I won’t be this way forever
请告诉我 我不会永久沉沦
I can’t do this for much longer
我不能再安于现状
Does anyone give a ****?
可有谁能将我救赎
I don’t think that’s the case
我不愿相信这就是结局
I wanna be anywhere else but here
我不愿苟延残喘在此地
Lately it’s been getting hard to feel
近来越发心如止水
But I’m getting used to it
但也逐渐习以为常
If I don’t wake up
若就此与明日朝阳永诀
I’m better off
于我反倒是种解脱
I’ll finally catch up on my sleep
我终将享有永逸的酣眠
I’ve been so lost
我已迷失太久
3 a.m. thoughts are building a new home just for me
凌晨三点 脑海中筑造杂思窠臼
If I don’t wake up
若就此与明日朝阳永诀
I’m better off
于我反倒是种解脱
I’ll finally catch up on my sleep
我终将享有永逸的酣眠
I’ve been so lost
我已迷失太久
3 a.m. thoughts are building a new home just for me
凌晨三点 再造一座杂思的窠臼